Your concern for me is kind, and I take it in the spirit it is meant. But also ... I can want to do a thing and still find it difficult. You do make sense, and your consideration speaks well of you. But it is also ... I think I would like the chance to lay it out, sometime. When I am well-prepared. It is a topic I have given a great deal of thought, but little conversation, overall.

[A small pause.]

I think perhaps it would be helpful. To try to express my thoughts to someone who simply wants to know without a further agenda beyond the desire to understand.