You needn't on my account. I generally ... people know what I've been without my reminding them, but it feels rude to draw attention to it under the circumstances. But it is not something I'm going to not be thinking of. It's ...
[He pauses to think.]
I suppose it's rather what I imagine being widowed to be like. Obviously not a perfect analogy, I don't mean it to be. But it's just that if I avoid speaking of it, it's for other people's comfort. I was recruited when I was fifteen, it was the bulk of my life.
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[ obviously that hasn't worked, they're still calling him one (call that focus)
but — ]
Do you want me to?
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[He pauses to think.]
I suppose it's rather what I imagine being widowed to be like. Obviously not a perfect analogy, I don't mean it to be. But it's just that if I avoid speaking of it, it's for other people's comfort. I was recruited when I was fifteen, it was the bulk of my life.